Where do the trannies go?
I've written before about the phenomena of the Trannienova. Those trannies that burst onto the scene, produce a prolific number of posts on the various forums and lists, attend every tranny event possible then vanish in a puff of taffeta never to be seen again.
Usually they go into a period of purging, often because after all this excitement they tell their wife and it goes badly, or they just implode in a puff of self doubt (or worse, self loathing)
Sometimes it's a case of too much too soon. The tranny is released from the bottle and just explodes.
I remember it was over a year between my debut and my second night out. And another 9 months before I made it out again. Things went very slowly.
But what I was more interested in is what happens to those more stalwart trannies, that just vanish.
In the early days of the Angels there were quite a few girls who were out quite a bit at Stormes with the rest of us. And then they just disappeared. People like Claire Wilson, who was one of the founding members of the Angels right in there at the early days, or BobbyJo Smith.
I hope these girls are OK. They just vanish from the scene and disappear. Emails sent either bounce or don't get answered.
I know girls leave the scene for many reasons. Either they begin to doubt themselves or just decide it's not for them. Sometimes a partner may object and they bury their female side to get an easy life at home. Or sometimes they go full on TS and go stealth and leave the scene behind.
I hope these girls are OK. I hope they do log into sites like the Angels from time to time, even if they don't post anything. It would be nice to know they're doing fine.
I'm not really sure of the point of this post, it's just something I've been musing for a while. The tranny scene can be quite a transient scene, with girls flitting onto the stage and then exiting just as fast. And in a scene where we all go by aliases, with many girls changing their names on a periodic basis, its hard to keep up with it all.
Usually they go into a period of purging, often because after all this excitement they tell their wife and it goes badly, or they just implode in a puff of self doubt (or worse, self loathing)
Sometimes it's a case of too much too soon. The tranny is released from the bottle and just explodes.
I remember it was over a year between my debut and my second night out. And another 9 months before I made it out again. Things went very slowly.
But what I was more interested in is what happens to those more stalwart trannies, that just vanish.
In the early days of the Angels there were quite a few girls who were out quite a bit at Stormes with the rest of us. And then they just disappeared. People like Claire Wilson, who was one of the founding members of the Angels right in there at the early days, or BobbyJo Smith.
I hope these girls are OK. They just vanish from the scene and disappear. Emails sent either bounce or don't get answered.
I know girls leave the scene for many reasons. Either they begin to doubt themselves or just decide it's not for them. Sometimes a partner may object and they bury their female side to get an easy life at home. Or sometimes they go full on TS and go stealth and leave the scene behind.
I hope these girls are OK. I hope they do log into sites like the Angels from time to time, even if they don't post anything. It would be nice to know they're doing fine.
I'm not really sure of the point of this post, it's just something I've been musing for a while. The tranny scene can be quite a transient scene, with girls flitting onto the stage and then exiting just as fast. And in a scene where we all go by aliases, with many girls changing their names on a periodic basis, its hard to keep up with it all.






4 Comments:
At January 25, 2007 12:09 AM,
Jo said…
Thoughtful words hon. I think about this often(and I know I have been popping up and down a bit over the years too). For me it's not been denial etc - finished with all that now - more a case of trying to make my life work in a situation where domestically we faced, er, challenges with my t side. And still do
I hope the girls who have dropped out come back too.
One thing though...and I know I've said this before and don't get all embarassed about it and that...(!) but the Angels has been a beacon of hope for me and many others all through the last few years. When I joined first (2000?) I was a mess. And a whole bunch of girls patiently put me back together (including BJ - where is she now eh?). It's still happening. Just recently a new girl - Debbie - is being given the full Angels cuddle, and she needs it too. She was totally isolated, in despair, didn't know such a place as the Angels could exist. And already it's making a huge impact. Take a bow hon ;-)
For me it was always there, I could dip in and out, and eventually I came back for good.
Do you remember the gorgeous, witty Tina Dey? Tina has recently resurfaced on Roses...after years of pain. She's feeling her way a bit. I emailed...but she's gone quiet again.
It's just so damned complicated all this t stuff isn't it? But I'm still going to nomibnate you and Kim for some kind of Nobel Prize one day, for the community you created :-)
At January 25, 2007 12:24 AM,
Kat said…
Yup, transient is what it is. Friend of ours has disappeared. But we know why - new addition to the household. Priorities change, circumstances change, life changes.
Same could be said of blogging, no?
At January 25, 2007 4:22 PM,
Lucinda said…
I think that some find that it is not for them just about as soon as they have done it and got the t-shirt. I wouldn't dare state that some girls get the idea that the competition is too hot! Lets face it many make the scene against the background of either secrecy or disapproval. In other words other people effectively stop them.
It is more transient than I would have imagined.
At February 22, 2007 7:20 PM,
Rachel Stevens said…
Hi Jo, I saw this thread a while ago and kept meaning to write something.
I made my big step out in oct 2002,kept promising myself i'd do it again, never got the time and then met my fiancee. We are currently expecting baby no. 2.
She knows that I used to dress but does not approve so the least I push it the better at the mo. I love having a family and although Rachel is always a part of me I have just disappeared off radar to keep my life as simple as possible. I miss my angel friends and will probably always wonder what could have been and what I might have done but for the moment I'm happy with my decisions and love my fiancee and son (soon to be sons) very much.
I shall never forget my night at transmission or the people I met there. You are still all amazing. Keep up the good work Jo, maybe one day I might return.
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